I will believe what I desire to believe

Today I was researching the internet for ways in which other people have healed themselves of emphysema. I haven't done a complete research, but what I have found so far is not encouraging. Most everything says, the condition cannot be healed. I simply don't believe this. I think it can be reversed and that damaged lungs can be restored to good health.

I ran today. Just for a little - probably 45 seconds or less - but I ran. I have done it once before, since I started this journey. That time I ran for 60 seconds and it was a strong run, not a sort of jog as I did today. I have not felt 100% today or yesterday due to minor sinus problems brought on by a sudden cold snap and more rain. (I admit the prospects of more rain are a bit scary, but I simply must not be afraid of rain or pretty much anything else anymore. Fear has run most of my life. Again, that's another blog entry...) The temperature has risen from a dismal 66 this morning when I got up to around 80. I have gone today from sitting wrapped in an afghan to turning on the air conditioner after my 30 second jog. That's the kind of Spring it is and that's OK.

This will be a short entry. I really don't have much to say. During my "afghan period" today, I fell asleep sitting up on the couch with the tv on. I slept for at least an hour and a half. It was right around noon. When I woke up, I took my oxygen level and it was 89. That bothered me and I was not able to breathe it up. But look at me now in the evening. I ran! My level was up to a steady 94 and at times, after I was startled by the 89, I worked to "breathe it up" and got to a 98 at one point. I can do this - restore my health. I know I can. I'm still going to look for evidence from others that they have reversed their "disease." I am determined to do the same. I have read of one lady who went from full time supplemental oxygen to none at all and being able to walk on a treadmill for 45 minutes with no problem. I have not been able to find that article again, but that is what started my journey to heal and I say "God Bless You," to whoever she is.