Today is today

Oh well. Not everyday has to be fantastic. Today hasn't been. I woke up late, then stayed in bed not wanting to get up. Probably a mistake, but I felt tired. That continued throughout the morning. My heart was just pounding, pounding. It does that sometimes and I'm not sure why. I used my little oximeter and my heart rate was high and the oxygen level wasn't 98 which I know is what I want all the time.

I am an "instant gratification" person. In some ways, that's not easy to admit. In other ways, I've always known it but have pushed it aside. This time, though, I need to really think about it and understand that it took 60 years to get my body into the "bad" shape it's in, so it will take more than two weeks to undo all it has endured. And that's a lot and, again, a blog for another day.

I did feel better by late morning and walked with my dog to the mailbox, then took her outside and groomed her for as long as she would tolerate it. The rest of this afternoon I have spent on the computer looking at resources, books, cds, etc., that will help my in my healing journey. I looked at many things on many sites and did buy a CD or two and a DVD that was recommended to me by my Qigong instructor.

It's only 4:30 p.m. and I still have plenty of time left in the day to exercise more. I am a little sore from all the great things I did yesterday - and I am proud of them - but the aches and pains are depressing me I think. Something is. Perhaps it is only as I said before - I want my oxygen level to be superior and it just isn't there yet. I must learn patience. I can learn patience. I will learn patience. I am learning patience.

One step at a time, one day at a time. And a gorgeous day it is today. Sunny, warm but not too hot, and moderate air quality, which is appreciated.

I am eating my apple, raisin, walnut, and newly added almonds, salad with poppy seed dressing for dinner. I had tuna for lunch. I believe I am eating better. Yes, I am eating better.